First Time Post

The reason I thought about starting a blog was to share what I am feeling with other mom's that are feeling the same way I have been. I never thought I would work up the little energy I have left to even start something to do on my own. I normally start things that I don't finish and then forget about it until the next thing I want to try. So, for this I am going to hold myself accountable. I guess some posts are going to sound like journal entries, some are going to give my amateur, or should I say newbie, advice when it comes to what I have learned during my short time of being a new mother.

I became a mom November 2016. During my whole pregnancy I was not so worried about becoming a mom, which is nonsense if you know me. I worry about worries that haven't even happened and probably won't happen.

You see, growing up I was diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. So naturally my brain is wired different than other worrying moms and/or women. My OCD is mostly focused around safety for myself and my family. The feeling of needing to accomplish a task so that something bad does not happen is what I have done since I can remember. So you can imagine, after having a baby it has gotten worse. Sure, any new mom will have anxieties and worries of what to do and how to care for this perfect little soul she brought into the world, but my anxieties and worries are exacerbated to the extent that it consumes most of my thoughts. So, my everyday anxiety has turned into postpartum anxiety.

So this blog, like I mentioned previously, will sometimes be a journal entry like today; however, I want this to become more than that. I strive to help people who have similar situations, feelings, thoughts, strengths, and weaknesses and me. I want to inspire someone, open someone's mind, encourage someone to ask for help, educate someone on mental health. I want to have hope and I want to give hope.

You don't need to be a mom to read my blog, if anyone does read my blog. Who knows, this could just be an outlet to get my brain to take a break or, even better, get the thoughts that circle around in my head 24/7 onto "paper."